This is a new journey

So taddaaa!!!
It's been a long time since my last post (well, the entry about manager is not included kkk since it was meant to be my assignment).
Actually I made a promise to myself not to write anything before semester break because I was afraid that if I post something good it will destroy the rest. So I waited till this moment. This is the last day of semester break (tomorrow I will be back to the jungle LOL).

Do you remember that I almost gave up about applying to ITS? Since I didn't make it via SNMPTN, I thought maybe ITS wasn't for me. So I started looking for other options that I just randomly chose from catalog. My parents felt sorry about the rejection and tried to make me happy. Well I spent a whole day whining and crying because of the announcement.
Then my dad said that it wasn't the time for regret everything, it was the time to get up and plan my life. So I wiped my tears and came to living room to talk about other universities.

I didn't mention ITS because apparently I was just too broken-heart to remember it. It was like trying to forget your first love. IT IS MY FIRST LOVE. I'd never imagine myself becoming other college student but ITS. When everyone asked what college I would go to, I would answer: ITS. But then I had to be realistic so I chose another. It made my parents confuse and asked why I didn't list the institute that reject me for SNMPTN entry. I said that I was too afraid to receive second rejection from it. I was afraid that because of my ego I would loose the opportunity to continue my study.

My dad told me:

 "You can compromise anything but one thing, your dreams."

Then I said that the standard was so very high I was afraid to try and fail. SBMPTN was my last option so I couldn't take it for granted. I don't want to regret my choice.

Then my dad said:

"The only thing you'll regret is not trying. Be brave. To be or not to be. Don't cry when you see your friends made it while you were just too afraid to apply."

Well, he was right, like always. So, I made my mind and chose ITS. SBMPTN has 3 choices based on priority, and I chose ITS for three of them. LOL can you imagine it?
It's like I bet all my life for it.

And it's worth it. They accepted me. Well not my first choice but it's okay.

Now I am studying Information Systems in ITS. It's like the combination of Informatics Engineering (my first choice) and management.

Well, at first I didn't like it because I hated the management part (it's hard for me to memorize all the materials) but then I started to like it. And I can survive. It was because of my friends who helped me.

We will fight together until S. Kom is written next to our name :)

Yeah, I guess my dad was right. I will never compromise my dreams again, I will never doubt my capability, I will believe that if there's a will there's a way.

And Thanks a lot GOD, I love you :*
please forgive my rant in this post

I made many moments and I feel good about them. From now on I will definitely enjoy my life :)

Mas Andre, Ropek, Me, and Nolan @ Smadapro

Forum daerah of my hometown :)

After briefing @SMA 1 Leces

My highschool friends. we met @ Smadapro. Me, Ruli, Tiwi, and Delia

My college friends @ Tunjungan Plaza Surabaya. Nops, Me, Niya, and Febe.

This is my goal now!! To become part of Google :))

See, this is us, SI2014 @ GG7

And I'm proud of being a part of FTIf 2014. Love you guys, keep fighting :)

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Review

Hola,
I'm not a highschooler anymore. Yea, but still looking for college.
I'm so happy that I've actually made it, you know finishing high school, alive. It's not like I'm exaggerating things about high school. But really, if you by any chance study in my school with all that system and schedule and the homework, getting out alive is the only thing you want. High school is so cruel, but so is college.
To fill this status quo -_- I spend my days reading internet stuffs which lately become so bias with political junk. I also happened to read my posts (all posts) in this blog and I come to realize that: GOD, HOW COULD I BE SO NAIVE, SO INNOCENT, SO 'ALAY' WRITING ALL THIS THINGS? Embarrassed
? Absolutely yes, my dear.
But you know what, THANK GOD I CAME TO MY COMMON SENSE TO WRITE ALL THIS THINGS. All of it is a proof that I've grown from a caterpillar to a bigger caterpillar hahaha :D I don't want to mention that now I'm a pupa or even a butterfly because I don't feel that I am.
I just realize that in my younger ages it just so happened to me to write all the things that came to my thought and posted it. I've never imagine the after effect, would it embarrass me, would it hurt anybody. I didn't think of it. But now, to write a post I have to think more than half an hour just to press the 'publish' button. Yes, I'm a big over-thinking caterpillar now :p
Hopefully someday I can become a butterfly, sweet and free. And I will never forget that I was once just a caterpillar. To help me in those days, I decide to continue writing on this blog. ^^    

Cory Monteith :'(

Hwaaa, tonight was the worst night. You know, I kinda a maniac of musical things, so when I first time watched Glee I felt like I finally found my soulmate. I love Glee since the first episode until current season. I collect every episode of the current season. I love Rachel Berry and her temper and her boyfriend, Finn.
I kinda shock when I knew they were together in real life, but it's just a happy news for me. I'm their shipper. I love their love story. I love when they act together. I love when they sing together.
But, suddenly, today I read a blast about Cory Monteith dead on Facebook. I check my tumblr and there's so many posts about Cory. He's found dead at a hotel. When Lea heard it, she was very shock--who wouldn't? They will just get married and now Cory's died. Who the hell is life messes up with? T.T I'm so sad as the Glee fans. Next season will never be the same.
RIP Cory Monteith, we will always miss you, and your life :')

just imagine you're Lea. one moment you're happy of getting married to a fabulous man and then tear down apart knowing the man has gone forever...

"Yes, I will marry you"

this moment won't be real :'(

Bali w/ my friends

So, this is our trip to Bali. Maybe our last big trip since we're now already in 12th grade. So many things to do, so many tests to face. But it's okay. You're gonna work hardcore if you want to make it, right?
I'm so glad I could spend my time with them. High school is rough you know, but with friends you can make it more fun. I love you, guys!

On the ship, me with red polka

hahaha, as the captain :D

tanah lot ;)

@ the end of 1st day

@ guest house. me with the purple pattern top

w/ snake. we were so brave!

ready for parasailing ^^

@ penyu island

@ Beratan Bedugul

just me. well ehm :)

you know guys, I already miss our togetherness. Hope we can make it sometime ;)

There is always a first time for everything

So today I was feeling so happy. I mean not that happy but that happy (u won't understand what I mean).
Like the tittle:

There is always a first time for everything

So I've been collect our first time of everything:

1. First time you called my name, to return my book

2. First time you laughed with me when I joked

3. First time you answered my question, about a movie we watched

4. First time you helped me to play volley ball because I can't even hold the ball

5. First time you replied my text

6. First time you asked me to join your event but I refused :(

7. First time you got angry to me because I disappointed you

8. First time you texted me first, which made my day so bright

:D

Struck By Lightning

This is Carson. He's so active in class.

Meet Malerie. She always documented everything.

 Hey, World! I just watched a movie titled struck by lightning. It is such an interesting yet ironic to me. And it makes me think about my life. My current life and my future life. Well, the story center to Carson Philips (Chris Cofler-- who portrayed Kurt in Glee) a president of suck school magazine, Chronicle. He is also Writer's Club leader. And it is also a suck club since there just a few of kids joined. But there's Malerie that appears in whole movie as Carson bestfriend that sticks to him and help him in making Literature Magazine that requested by Northwestern University to complete his application. Which that magazine is contributed by all the students he and Malerie blackmailed. They write anything they can (but for me all of the writings are impressive) to make sure Carson won't spread out their secrets.

Carson and Mal get ready for blackmailed their friends.

This is when Carson advice Mal for her writing. "Let the ideas find you!"

Life is like lightning.

Right! Just FIVE student in this magazine!

The submission box turns into junk box. Poor Carson :(

Carson struggles in his life. Everyone in high school seems to hate him because he's freak, brave, active in all meeting discussion, and totally sarcastic. He's been bullied by other student because he's not popular and he's the president of a totally weird magazine. So Carson hates that town and the school and all people and really wants to get out from there by applying to Northwestern. But the moment he's accepted, his mother throws away the verification letter which leads to making Carson mad.
And I was really crying deep because all of the scene make me think about my own life. I was like Carson-- struggling to survive-- and maybe I still am. And I live my life like there's no tomorrow. I mean, I still think about my future plan, but I also always doing and saying stupid things. I wasted my time sitting in front of my notebook, typing, hoping that someone out there maybe read my things when I supposed to study for tomorrow English midtest. I just-- like Carson-- too busy to hoping for things I don't have yet, instead of thanking for everything I already have.

I like this. He knows what he wants!

 And what about you? Do you have any plan for your future? Do you have something in your mind that you really want to say but you just piled it in your brain waiting it to explode? Do you ever hate your life because it's not that interesting like your friends'? Do you ever have the plan that didn't happen like it should do? Do you ever missing something from the past and want it badly to skip your bad memories? 'Cause I do.

 So for you who haven't watch this movie, just watch it. It's just a simple yet mentally educational teenager movie, but it is worth watching... so many messages you will get from this movie! :D Go up Struck by Lightning ^^

You ARE who you PRETEND to be

Well... that's a quote or a tagline of a movie I currently downloaded. Title is Unicorn City. It's an indie film and not so popular in my society (and I love seeing indie movie). Today I was sick so I didn't get to school, I ended up watching this remarkable movie.
So the plot is about Voss a jobless gamer that tries to apply to gaming company. When he's being interviewed the admin said that he has to be a leader gamer. Not just a gamer but also a LEADER. Voss argues that he has already a leader but the admin doesn't believe. so he asks Voss to comeback apply and show the evidence that he is a leader, for atleast 50 people. Voss goes home frustrated. I think he just so unlucky. Like he has a strange brother Clancy live together and a sensitive leader of his society of gaming, ShadowHawk who is a fucking retarded man. Fortunately he has a lovely freak best friend, Marsha.
I think Marsha such a geek but smart-ass girl 'cause she can think many ideas to solve Voss problems. She is gamer too and I love her character. She is pretty, blonde, tall, and suppa-freak hahaha :D She is innocently dating a user she has been accompanied to fight online but already broke him because Voss tells that Tanick (this game user) may not be good. Marsha mistakenly this words and thinks that Voss may in love with her, but Voss actually doesn't give a fuck.
From Marsha's suggestion Voss makes a Utopian city for a gamer in a peace area near forest. Hahaha Marsha is such a brilliant odd girl. She makes Voss a coat, breakfast, and unicorn cupcakes. By this Voss receives his vision to built Unicorn City (he sees unicorn poster at Marsha's house). He phones all his best friends to gather and asks Marsha to filming all his action as a leader to get a job.
Finally Voss builds this Unicorn City. All people in here are all gamers. They must acts and dress like their character. They also have to choose their user ID. Like Voss uses Magmald and Marsha uses Roshana.
Marsha feels unsure with her feeling but her emo girl persuades her to dance in a night. Marsha dances and at the time Voss looks like he falls for Marsha. But he just such a looser that says 'You're different'. Aaaah idiot right?
Shadow Hawk then comes to the camp and tempts the gamers with foods. He admits to Marsha that he is Tanick (Marsha online boyfriend). He sends fake reporters to shoots Unicorn City. Voss and Clancy believes that then jump into the van. But the reporter trick them out into elsewhere forest. Felling so frustrated, Voss and Clancy fight and Voss says spicy words to his brother. It makes Clancy sad and left Voss to go home. Voss feels sorry, he comes back to Unicorn City just to helps the residences when they ambushed by the local polices. He chase Shadow Hawk out of the forest and jumps to helps Marsha. Wheeew so sweet I like this scene :D :))
But many cops come along and arrest them.
Voss and his best friends attend the judgement of their action. Luckily the judge is a gamer too so they safe in order the judge asks them to built a new Unicorn City in town and let him to be the king. They deal.

Voss meets the admin again to show his video and notes as a gamer and leader. The admin badly laughs and feel so inspires by Voss crazy idea to built a utopia land. The admin accept him, but Voss finally figures out what best for him so he refuses the job surely. He ends up with no job again but this time he feels happy because has Marsha on his side. On the launching day of new Unicorn City, Voss silently  confess his feeling to Marsha by her note :D The film ends up with Clancy on the military camp receives package from Voss that contains his awkward-sword-that-definitely-is-a-water-pipe -__- :D

This film is so funny. You'll laugh at entirely plot. Hahaha :D You are who you pretend to be. That's so sickly right. If you pretend to be a leader you will be a leader. If you pretend to be a looser you will be the one. So just pretend to be the the best side of you and see what will happen to your life...
Now I'll pretend to be smart and healthy girl so I can comeback to school tomorrow and finish all the task I missed today =___=

When Clancy finds his sword

This is Unicorn citizen

Yeah, crazy Marsha and idiot Voss

new Unicorn citiy

Sooo sweet :'))