Who says family and team should be different? OSR, you are both.

Guys, I wrote this for you. 

I want to admit that there's a different between work and family. That your work isn't your family. But what if, it turns out that your team is your family? Because that's what happen to me. 

I was a staff (and planned to extend my contribution) at OSR BEM FTIf. The leader was Mas Wildan, Mba Kikin as the secretary, Mba Mia and Mas Agung as the expert staffs. 

At first I felt so excluded from the team. Because I'm not as sociable as Gradi, nor as busy as Guntur, nor as committed as Aldo, nor as brave as Irma, nor as experienced as Silfia (Ipi), nor as diligent as Septy, nor as tender as Aisyah, nor as critical as Huma, nor as responsible as Ovan, nor as funny as Adi, nor as famous as Hanif. But you guys helped me grow up. I don't know what magic you have, but I was never be afraid to fail when I was with you, guys. Maybe because Mas Wildan once told us don't be afraid to fail. Or because Mba Kikin always been able to keep up with our ideas. Or because Mas Agung always had hundreds of solutions that we never thought of. Or because Mba Mia turned out to be our savior despite how busy she was. 

I always remember our date every Saturday night. How I like all the foods and the beverages. And I still remember how sad I was when I couldn't join you guys to Malang. I always wanted to make a redemption, but as you know I was too afraid.

I already could feel the family bound since we first eat at D'Cost. It's like a whisper on my ears said "this is it, this could be what you looking for." And yes it is, Baby. You are all I look for. The place to embrace my softskill, the place to whine, the place to get up and grow, the place that make me realize that it's okay to be me, the place where I can learn about social thing, and the place that says everything about what family is without being explained. 

So, OSR, I would like to say thank you. Thank you so much for this two semesters that you've given to me. I was blessed to be a part of you, fantastic people! Thank you so much for being my team in all conditions. Thank you so much for being my family, a place to run into. 

I might not be able to be the leader or the influential person at this department nor in the cabinet, but it's okay. It doesn't mean I should stop spreading the kindness. 

PS. I was and will always be in love with you, guiys :*
PS2. for Guntur the next Kadep. Hope you can bring this ship to the best place, wherever it will be :)
PS3. for Gradi you are the best, don't let things like seat and position let you down :D
PS4. for Mbakin, Maswil, Masgung, Mbami... please, always be our parents LOL :p

Our first date

It was the first time I met you as a team

Our first wefie

First time full team

First time wearing BEM FTIf jacket

Fantastic girls <3

Candid pose never been so fail XD

Huma

Irma

Septy

Girls, minus Irma (the photographer)

Look how happy we were. In frame: Ovan, Septy, Me, Aisyah

In frame: Mba Kikin, Guntur, Septy, Me

Sushi time!!

@ITS Expo

Gradi said it was his masterpiece. In frame: Me, Gradi, Aisyah

Standing tall. In frame: Mas Wildan, Me, Gradi, Aisyah

 OSR@Pacet. In frame: Mba Kikin, Me, Irma, Huma, Ovan, Mas Wildan, Gradi.

BEM FTIf goes to Pacet

@angkringan

OSR goes to EXOTEC, FTIf Festival 2016

Aisyah

It was amazing

SCS

Not the last date

In frame: Me, Gradi, Aisyah, Guntur, Ipi

 Photos from our last date :")

Another candid fail. Thanks, Sep. LOL :DD

You will always be my family

In frame: Irma, Me, Ovan

In frame: Guntur, Ovan, Ipi, Me, Irma

In frame: Irma, Me, Septy, Ipi, Aisyah, Huma

Our last party. Is it funny that it was the same place as our first date

Last Photos of 2015

So instead of posting my rants about college, I will share my happiness. Lucky me, I'm a part of OSR and here are the photos of my family. Really love you guys <3

You should stay strong :)

Hello!!

I’m back … for just several minutes… I’m trying to escape my routine and write. Next week is midterm and I don’t think that I can handle it. Because I feel that I don’t really absorb the subjects.

I’m tired, I’m bored, and I’m done. I feel like it’s time for me to step back a little and start a peaceful life. But I’ve chosen this path. I can’t be irresponsible because it’s not just about me. It’s about what have my friends mandated to me. It isn’t as simple as I’ve imagined. In my darkest night I’ve been thinking about resignation. Yeah, how about I resign from whatever position I’m in. But if I did that, it means I’m a coward. It means that I’m a pathetic human being.

So here I am, still trying to figure out how to stay active yet energetic. Staying up late is starting to become my new hobby. I do the homework in the night and sleep when the sun goes up. Don’t worry I’m not a person who hates panda eyes. In my opinion panda eyes make a girl looks more intelligent.

I try to control myself so that I don’t rant directly to my friends and my family. Because compare to what they’ve been fighting mine is nothing. However the only thing I supposed to do is studying, right? The others are just my improvisation. My friends always think that I’m the strongest one because I’ve never say my true feelings to them. I’ve never said that all the tasks make me tired.

Well, I want to admit that sometimes they (my friends) are my place to escape. They are the train that takes me out of my boring activities. Whenever I’m with them I always forget that I still have homework or quizzes or paper. From them, I learnt how to live the moments instead of worrying of tomorrow.  

Then I remember my family everytime I check my phone. I still have my family, my biggest supporters. It feels like some of the weight is lifted up when I hear my mom voice. It feels that my energy is topped up when I hear about my father latest news. It feels that I have thousands of supporters when my brothers send me messages.

In the end, I should keep my spirit up. I have every reason to stay strong. No matter how hard it is, it will end soon. Every fight is worth it J

Suddenly it doesn't matter anymore

Hey, I've decided to write at least once per month. To make my blog more alive lol

Today was an exhausted day. Yes, today was Eid al-Adha and I didn't come home. For the first time I didn't enjoy my eid with my family. But I did it with my new family, it's kind of social department of our faculty organization.
We celebrated eid together by helping to do qurban procession in our faculty. Well, it's my first time actually to be involved in such religious event. I was kind of ignorant of this kind of event because I thought I will always celebrate it with my family.
And now I learned how to manage such a crucial event. Well, it was hard at the beginning but suddenly I enjoyed it too. Why? Because it doesn't matter anymore if this is succeeded or not. No matter what I enjoyed it. Being with my friends, talked to seniors, talked to cs, coop with lecturer, and etc. made me think that I actually can do this, that I've been capable of doing this thing.
More over I will meet my family on Saturday, so I have other big event to attend to lol.
I hope everyone is enjoying this day and all the work we've done this day be rewarded by Allah SWT. I believe that it's worth it after all ^^

Surabaya Night Out

Hello, I'm here to brag about my night out like more than a week ago. But I loved it. I mean I think actually they didn't intend to ask me to join. I mean I was there as a replacement. I always am. I'm the unimportant girl. Nobody would ask me out. Nobody would care if I'm exist or not.
So one of my friend asked me because someone from the gang wasn't available. I said yes. Yeah, I was so pathetic. But you know what, I said yes because I didn't know that I was a replacement.
I joined them, we departed together from our institute by motorbike. I rode with bitter feeling. I had felt that it would be a bad idea. But turned out I was wrong. They actually recognized me, or so did I feel.
So here are the photos we took from there. It's Surabaya Night Carnival. I enjoyed the ride, thanks guys. And please don't tell anybody about my scream LOL :D