You should stay strong :)

Hello!!

I’m back … for just several minutes… I’m trying to escape my routine and write. Next week is midterm and I don’t think that I can handle it. Because I feel that I don’t really absorb the subjects.

I’m tired, I’m bored, and I’m done. I feel like it’s time for me to step back a little and start a peaceful life. But I’ve chosen this path. I can’t be irresponsible because it’s not just about me. It’s about what have my friends mandated to me. It isn’t as simple as I’ve imagined. In my darkest night I’ve been thinking about resignation. Yeah, how about I resign from whatever position I’m in. But if I did that, it means I’m a coward. It means that I’m a pathetic human being.

So here I am, still trying to figure out how to stay active yet energetic. Staying up late is starting to become my new hobby. I do the homework in the night and sleep when the sun goes up. Don’t worry I’m not a person who hates panda eyes. In my opinion panda eyes make a girl looks more intelligent.

I try to control myself so that I don’t rant directly to my friends and my family. Because compare to what they’ve been fighting mine is nothing. However the only thing I supposed to do is studying, right? The others are just my improvisation. My friends always think that I’m the strongest one because I’ve never say my true feelings to them. I’ve never said that all the tasks make me tired.

Well, I want to admit that sometimes they (my friends) are my place to escape. They are the train that takes me out of my boring activities. Whenever I’m with them I always forget that I still have homework or quizzes or paper. From them, I learnt how to live the moments instead of worrying of tomorrow.  

Then I remember my family everytime I check my phone. I still have my family, my biggest supporters. It feels like some of the weight is lifted up when I hear my mom voice. It feels that my energy is topped up when I hear about my father latest news. It feels that I have thousands of supporters when my brothers send me messages.

In the end, I should keep my spirit up. I have every reason to stay strong. No matter how hard it is, it will end soon. Every fight is worth it J

This is a new journey

So taddaaa!!!
It's been a long time since my last post (well, the entry about manager is not included kkk since it was meant to be my assignment).
Actually I made a promise to myself not to write anything before semester break because I was afraid that if I post something good it will destroy the rest. So I waited till this moment. This is the last day of semester break (tomorrow I will be back to the jungle LOL).

Do you remember that I almost gave up about applying to ITS? Since I didn't make it via SNMPTN, I thought maybe ITS wasn't for me. So I started looking for other options that I just randomly chose from catalog. My parents felt sorry about the rejection and tried to make me happy. Well I spent a whole day whining and crying because of the announcement.
Then my dad said that it wasn't the time for regret everything, it was the time to get up and plan my life. So I wiped my tears and came to living room to talk about other universities.

I didn't mention ITS because apparently I was just too broken-heart to remember it. It was like trying to forget your first love. IT IS MY FIRST LOVE. I'd never imagine myself becoming other college student but ITS. When everyone asked what college I would go to, I would answer: ITS. But then I had to be realistic so I chose another. It made my parents confuse and asked why I didn't list the institute that reject me for SNMPTN entry. I said that I was too afraid to receive second rejection from it. I was afraid that because of my ego I would loose the opportunity to continue my study.

My dad told me:

 "You can compromise anything but one thing, your dreams."

Then I said that the standard was so very high I was afraid to try and fail. SBMPTN was my last option so I couldn't take it for granted. I don't want to regret my choice.

Then my dad said:

"The only thing you'll regret is not trying. Be brave. To be or not to be. Don't cry when you see your friends made it while you were just too afraid to apply."

Well, he was right, like always. So, I made my mind and chose ITS. SBMPTN has 3 choices based on priority, and I chose ITS for three of them. LOL can you imagine it?
It's like I bet all my life for it.

And it's worth it. They accepted me. Well not my first choice but it's okay.

Now I am studying Information Systems in ITS. It's like the combination of Informatics Engineering (my first choice) and management.

Well, at first I didn't like it because I hated the management part (it's hard for me to memorize all the materials) but then I started to like it. And I can survive. It was because of my friends who helped me.

We will fight together until S. Kom is written next to our name :)

Yeah, I guess my dad was right. I will never compromise my dreams again, I will never doubt my capability, I will believe that if there's a will there's a way.

And Thanks a lot GOD, I love you :*
please forgive my rant in this post

I made many moments and I feel good about them. From now on I will definitely enjoy my life :)

Mas Andre, Ropek, Me, and Nolan @ Smadapro

Forum daerah of my hometown :)

After briefing @SMA 1 Leces

My highschool friends. we met @ Smadapro. Me, Ruli, Tiwi, and Delia

My college friends @ Tunjungan Plaza Surabaya. Nops, Me, Niya, and Febe.

This is my goal now!! To become part of Google :))

See, this is us, SI2014 @ GG7

And I'm proud of being a part of FTIf 2014. Love you guys, keep fighting :)

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There is always a first time for everything

So today I was feeling so happy. I mean not that happy but that happy (u won't understand what I mean).
Like the tittle:

There is always a first time for everything

So I've been collect our first time of everything:

1. First time you called my name, to return my book

2. First time you laughed with me when I joked

3. First time you answered my question, about a movie we watched

4. First time you helped me to play volley ball because I can't even hold the ball

5. First time you replied my text

6. First time you asked me to join your event but I refused :(

7. First time you got angry to me because I disappointed you

8. First time you texted me first, which made my day so bright

:D

Mos-Pena

Akhirnya hari ini selesai sudah kegiatan MOS-Pena di sekolah baruku: SMAN 1 Probolinggo. seru banget.
tp yg paling aku seneng itu ada Komdis senyum. Komdis itu kumpulan osis2 (ada 5 orang) yg diaudisi dan diharuskan mendisiplinkan para murid baru. Kadang-kadang merea bentak2in kita, tapi itu semua demi kebaikan kita agar disiplin, gak leha-leho gong.
Komdis yang paling kusuka adalah Mas Khalid Abri. Emang sih komdis yg lain bagus2 jg, tapi gtw sama Mas Abri ini aku nge-fans. soalnya cara dia memberi nasihat ngeresep sampek ke hati. Nasihat yg diberikan itu disampaikan dengan baik dan dengan suara tegas dan bulat. Terus ekspresinya itu kebapakan (yallah, mas maapno bahasaku iki).
Selama seminggu MOS-Pena ini Komdis itu gak pernah senyum, bercanda, ketawa-ketiwi (meski aku udah liat Mas Abri, Mas Rama, Mbak Denis trus Mas M. Fajar (gtw dipanggil siapa soalnya gak dpt tanda tangannya sih :'( hiks). Kuat banget ya? Tp itu demi menjaga nama baik kedisiplinan. Salut deh.

Terus td sore itu ada acara anak-anak osis yg disebut OSIS Show. Haha kocak soro! ada acara dari Sie jasmani dan daya kreasi drama musikal opo video klip live,,, ora ngerti gw. Yg tampil tuh Mas Pupu. Hahaha, jijiki. Masak -maaf- bokongnya dipegang sih??? sesama cowok lagi. mungkin yg didepan gak liyat. tapi anak2 kelas A, B, n G pada bengok2 heboh ngeliatnya.

Petang itu seusai upacara penutupan, kami foto2 dengan komdis. nyesel gabawa kamera!!! soalnya hasil jepretan hp burek ala dewa. sampek ora keliyatan apaan yg difoto. Bukan aku yg moto, tapi temenku. Foto sama Mas Rama (banyak yg ngefan) burek, mas Abri (yg keren dan kebapakan) dikit bureknya, Mbak Denis (yg cantik dan imutz) dikit-dikit jelas. Hah.... foto sama Mas Pupu butuh keberanian extra... :') tp akhirnya berhasil.





*Bwt hasil foto2nya gak bisa hari ini ngepos soalnya notebook lg mabok*